Wazhat! Wahzat!

This was too sweet not to share. Hope everyone has a great weekend.

The Best Moments In Life
1. Falling in love.
2. Laughing till your stomach hurts.
3. Enjoying a ride down the country side.
4. Listening to your favorite song on the radio.
5. Going to sleep listening to the rain pouring outside.
6. Getting out of the shower and wrapping yourself with a warm, fuzzy towel.
7. Passing your final exams with good grades.
8. Being part of an interesting conversation.
9. Finding some money in some old pants.
10. Laughing at yourself.
11. Sharing a wonderful dinner with all your friends.
12. Laughing without a reason.
13. "Accidentally" hearing someone say somthing good about you.
14. Watching the sunset.
15. Listening to a song that reminds you of an important person in your life.
16. Receiving or giving your first kiss.
17. Feeling this movement in your body when seeing this "special" someone.
18. Having a great time with your friends.
19. Seeing the one you love happy.
20. Wearing the shirt of a person you love and smelling his/her perfume.
21. Visiting an old friend of yours and remembering great memories.
22. Hearing some telling you "I LOVE YOU"

Well as expected I am EXHAUSTED!!! Two babies at once is really a different kettle of fish. They are teaching me how to survive on the least amount of sleep necessary. But they are sure the cutest little things. So now I have 4. I am indeed blessed.

Hope you are great! I can't promise to be visiting because I actually hear one calling as I type this...
Keep good and if you can't be good please keep out of trouble :-) LOL

I am not sure if I told you this before.. I started a support group with a friend a few years back ... well to be honest my friend coerced me into starting it with her, I am not a going to meeting kind of girl and I definitely didn't want to be responsible for monthly meetings and I didn't think I was ready to do any supporting, BUT started we did and we haven't looked back we meet regularly and we have even had a few parents workshops. Socials/parties for our children. It has been gratifying being there for parents who are going through something similar to me.

Recently we were had our most public event ever. For World Autism Awareness Day on April 2 we as a group stood in the front of a building on a busy corporate street and released 100 balloons as a symbolic gesture of spreading autism awareness. WILD.. .honestly it was a wonderful experience even if we didn't reach anyone other than the parents who were there. One member of our group said it was quite spiritual looking up at these balloons as they slowly spread through the sky really symbolic of what we as a group hope to achieve. :-)




And now for an update on me... well as you may have realized I am still not getting as much computer time that I need and to be honest my brain is one big fog so blogging or walking has not been happening. It doesn't help that my husband keeps hogging the laptop either LOL.

I am doing good just really big for me... and I am SOOOOO TIRED all the time. Don't mean to be whiny but having two babies at a time is hard work. My brain is constantly busy with whether I have eaten enough today, was it the right foods. Did I drink my three glasses of milk and the requisite 8 glasses of water? I have found myself eating stuff that I would NEVER EVER eat if it was for these two. I don't really like coconut water, but it is suppose to be good so I find myself drinking it and I despise papaya or pawpaw as we call it in the Caribbean but once again it is suppose to be good for me and the babies so I close my eyes and gag on a few slices every other LOL.
And I am keeping myself quiet, because I really want to go as close to term as possible... no early labour for this one ( sooo don't need the stress) But you know GOd is good so I expect all will turn out GREAT in the end. So say a prayer for me cause I have 2 months to go if all goes well.

My children are great they are looking forward to Easter holiday and to be honest so am I ... We can all sleep in late :)

And here is a picture of the belly as I was last week. LOL the camera is doing a good job of hiding half of it.



Have a great week!

Well this has been ridiculously long time...
Been going through a bit of a rough patch that has been kind of depressing and being constantly tired and  achy hasn't helped either. A lot has been missed since the last time I posted. The children had birthdays 8 and 6 respectively. WOW it is unbelievable that I have been a mother for 8years already  :) The children had sports day and that as usual was awe-inspiring and my heart did swell with pride.
The husband and I had our 10th anniversary on Valentines day who would have thought? certainly  not I LOL.

Right as I was feeling really low three things happened that made me realize that Life is full of such beauty and happiness that if we allow ourselves we could get lost in it.

1) I opened my window and saw the wonder of a fully bloomed Poui tree just outside my window. WOW

2) The icecream truck drove by and we actually stopped it and got icecream for all... the beams from my two lasted until the next day. Such a small  thing that produce such delight that it also cheered me until the next day as well.
 



3) And finally what do you get when you cross an excitable young girl, her dog and a princess t-shirt? One very proud girlie and one poor puppy who ran away to hide because he was hating the confinement. Can I tell you I laughed and laughed doesn't he look miserable. I don't know how he sat still long enough for her to put it on LOL



I hope to be more present, but I can't promise feeling really tired now and sitting can be tiresome as well LOL.
Luckily everything is going along well with the pregnancy and with God's blessings I will be able to carry these two as close to term as is possible.
Have a great weekend everyone and I hope to take a walk and visit everyone.
HUGs

If it was only so easy LOL

Hope everyone is having a good week.

For the last two nights I watched the two day premiere of American Idol!

I never do that I usually get so embarrassed for the bad singers and am wrought with anxiety for the so-so singers that I rather wait for the semifinals choose my winner and then watch the last show. I usually get the winner right :)

But I watched both days and it wasn't as painful as all that . It did make me wonder though... where do some people get the notion of a non existent singing talent and the gumption to go in front of an audience and sing!! i mean I am no singer and after a few of the terrible ones I was thinking hey I do have a pretty good voice! LOL

JUST A FEW MORE THINGS ON MY MIND!
I have been feeling out of sorts recently now that I have more time to blog walk I have been finding that I can't find the spaces that I have become accustom to visiting either people have moved without a forwarding address or they have just stopped and it makes me feel sad... and I have to agree with  my Trini Friend Fay the ones that are around are still not saying much :( really makes you want to say knock knock anybody out there
It feels like in the old days when I was the only visitor to my space <<giggle>> But I guess like those day this space has always been about me relieving some of the noisy words mulling around in my head and not about stirring up comments :). I miss the people that are no longer here though and I wish them well. SIGH.
Also I am not enjoying the new layout and look of spaces it is back to being hard to get around <<pout>>
A bit miffed
I watch a lot of television- it is one of my vices so i will share two shows that have recently distressed me with their episodes.
I occasionally watch Private Practice, the spin off from Grey's Anatomy, and I was so upset by their episode on the MMR vaccination. It was so alarmist and judgemental that it angered me.
 I understand that vaccinations are good and necessary in keeping our children and everyone else safe from disease, but I am sorry it is hard to balance that with the fact that it may or may not cause autism. In the show this woman had a child with classic autism who she swore became autistic after being vaccinated and two un-vaccinated sons. One of the son got measles and of course died in the process causing the doctor to vaccinated the remaining son without permission. Have I mentioned that it was alarmist and judgemental.
I understand the mother's anguish not to repeat the autism card.
For me it has been as hard swallowing  this vaccination thing seeing that my eldest has been diagnosed with Autism- Thank GOD that he is not classic and is functioning good so far in this neuro-typical world. Thank God for him he is a sweetie. I can't say that he has autism because of the MMR or one of the other vaccinations or if it is simply a combination of genetics and unfortunate circumstances, but I do know that I am SCARED and cautious. I have been tardy with my daughter I needed her to be clear and grown and strong and only then did I give in to getting her vaccinated for the MMR. I know as a child I never got a vaccination until I was about 5 or 6, I also had Measles and German measles as a child and I am still here to talk about it. I know it is possible to die from measles, but hey it is also possible to die from the common cold. My view on vaccinations especially the likes of MMR is that they are giving them to babies too early and too many at a time and honestly there is no reason that we could wait until a child is at least 3 maybe 4 to do the MMR, but I am not a doctor just a concerned, opinionated mother. So suffice it to say the show got under my skin.

Then on a lighter note
The show Ghost Whisperer had me spooked. I like some semi-scary shows some times and I think Jennifer Love Hewitt is cute or maybe I think her name is cute... whatever.  It was about reincarnation and how the spirits that do reincarnate prepare the mother's to be by speaking to them in a dream. Now I have always said that both of my children spoke to me and named themselves before they were born. My son actually told me he was a boy in that dream/conversation all along I thought I was having a girl. YIKEs needless to say that I was SPOOKED! Can both my children be reincarnates is that possible and finally do I really believe a silly show and does it EVEN MATTER LOL?! Well no it doesn't, but the show surely had me spooked for a bit.

PHEW I am even more chatty than I thought:
I have been enjoying the puppy. He has been like a third child-- a third spoilt child that is. He is as finicky eater as my daughter and sometimes would not eat unless I am standing there with him and in the beginning and actually still at night he would not venture outside... he is easily spooked LOL
It has been fun watching my chidren bond with him. Actually it is quite annoying at times because my usually 'fearful , don't leave me with that dog ' daughter has turned in to the little girl from Finding Nemo and is perpetually pulling, tugging and squeezing the air out of the puppy. My son has been great with the dog as well... it took a litte while, but he actually plays catch and chase with hime. The puppy has been great with them both patient and tolerant and nibbles righ back on them and they still love him so I am happy. Soon he will be too big to be inside all the time, BUT I am sure we will find some reason for him to lie under the computer desk by MY foot LOL

(the children very happily gave him the naughty chair and he delights in sleeping it and destroying it depending on his mood :) Oh and he fights them for the chair when they decide they want it back..silly children)

So I am all chatted out -so I rambled and rambled and now I wish everyone a great weekend as I go off to stomp on some spaces
HUGS :)

I have so much on my mind that I couldn't figure out how to get the jumble of thoughts into words so bear with me as I ramble!

Happy New Year by the way! May 2009 be even better than all the dire predictions have forecasted.

I looked back at my wish for 2008 and I must say that it had lots of the elements that I asked for.
A year in Review!
2008 was a whirlwind of change. As I had asked it was indeed filled with family, laughter and for the most part was happy. I went home to Trinidad for Carnival and I had a blast and the time spent with my sisters and mother was so amazing for the first time in a long while they were all speaking to each other and that meant it was great. And then I had my sister and my niece by me for summer and with my other sister rejoining the airline as a flight attendant meant I saw so much more of her that I felt blessed. I was able to find great ways to enjoy my children while stretching their imagination and limits.
It became a crazy year because I took on a part time job that for the most part was more full time than part... it added an element of stress that I ran away from in the first place... however I enjoyed certain aspects of the job- the people who I had missed and especially having the flexibility to leave at the previously appointed time.
THEN I moved house --WOW Moving sucks even if you are making a supposedly positive move up! The last few months of the year were traumatic to say the least. Hectic and Stressful and Cluttered. Next time I move I am hiring a professional crew along with a interior designer to fit everything in. GOD please let me afford it! LOL
And of course it didn't help having a break-in barely two weeks into the place.

2008 also brought something so totally unexpected and shocking that I am still reeling from it.
So I was going to be all cute and beat around the bush.. but can't muster up the energy!
At about September /October of 2008 I found out that no I was not  going through early menopause ( well that is still up for debate) like my mother did at my age-- I was actually PREGNANT! Giggle I was on my way to baby makes us five....BUT no let's not stop there. After an ultrasound I was SHOCKED!!!! to see not one but TWO sacks... come on you must have heard the scream all the way across the waters. To say I was surprised would be an under statement! Hey I have two children already I was looking to make it three BUT four WOW I am still reeling. REELING though every now and again I get excited yeah a little bit of delusion sets in LOL. Wow as if I didn't have enough on my plate already. But as the saying goes God giveth God provides or something like that.

It has been interesting the different reactions from people. Some people are excited from the offset, some people laugh hysterically, some have commented on my monetary status or lack there of, some have commented on how old I am to which I instantly rebut by saying I AM NOT OLD!! most have had a knee jerk reaction to ask me WHY WOULD YOU  HAVE TWINS!! to which I have had to say that "you know I really went up to those two doors and opted to go through the twin door!" As if I had a say LOL

So I started off 2009 4 mths pregnant quite huge(apparently 2 babies will do that to you) , in a freshly painted house in great need of some rearranging to fit 4 children and two adults, unemployed (got laid off in December because my boss thought I needed to rest seeing as I was having twins at "my age") and really, really TIRED!!!!!!!

Whoa now that was a mouth full. I should be around more often as I have lots of time between my couch rest time.

So what's been going on with you?! I guess I have to come a visit and find out!

Our new house has had it's share of ups and down already. The bugs, the dust, the distance, the lizards... but today I experienced some of the perks and I will share:
we got a puppy..really cute still unnamed though...we want something that works for him.
Surprisingly and thankfully the children have adjusted to him being around nicely considering today makes it a full 24 hours since we got him.


Time on the swing has become a real delight
but it all these perks almost came crashing down when this came up to my back door to say welcome to the neighbourhood... ARRRRRRRRHHHHHHRHHH

Isn't it the ugliest thing ever... it came right up to my door we almost did hopscotch together. Sigh

I promptly shooed the unwelcome guest away and got the puppy inside and slammed the door.

All I have to say is all intruders homosabien or otherwise need to stay away LOL

Hope everyone is having a great weekend toad free of course!
Can you believe Christmas is only five days away..WOW!

Someone sent this to me today and it is perfect especially the first line... It is something I have been dealing with the fact that some people are just not right for you no matter how you try to explain it away. I thought I would share with you as it just may be something that someone out there needs to read. Have a great day.


Don't spend major time with minor people. If there are people in your life that continually disappoint you, break promises, stomp on your dreams, too judgmental, have different values and don't have your back during difficult times...that is not a friend.

To have a friend, be a friend. Sometimes in life as you grow, your friends will either grow or go. Surround yourself with people who reflect values, goals interests and lifestyle.

When I think of any of my successes, I am thankful to GOD from whom all blessings flow, and to my family and friends that enrich my life.

Over the years my phone book has changed because I changed for the better. At first you think you're going to be alone, but after a while new people show up in your life that make your life so much sweeter and easier to endure.

Remember what your elders used to say, "Birds of a feather flock together.” If you're an eagle, don't hang around chickens: Chickens Can't Fly!

I love the Lord and thank Him for all that he does in my life, therefore, Yes! I do love Jesus. He is my source of existence and Savior. He keeps me functioning each and everyday. Without Him, I will be nothing.

Without Him, I am nothing but with Him I can do all things. Phil 4:13

Be Positive - Be Progressive - Take the time to make a positive
difference in someone's life.

Walk by faith, Not by sight, Receive God's Blessings!!!!!!!

For the last few months I have felt like death was dancing too flirtatiously near for my comfort. It seemed as if every week or every other week I was wiping away tears because someone I knew personally had lost a father, grandmother, sister or mother. The most recent being a colleague and friend who lost her dad to the battle of cancer... he was a prominent Jamaican 'soca' entertainer and just as I was trying to absorb that shock and feeling the rawness for my friend then I heard that my Aunt had also lost her fight with cancer and I did indeed cry!
Because this death was so close and it made the inevitableness of my parents and grandmother passing that more real! I felt pressured and nervous BUT then I chose to release the panic that was creeping over me and dwell on the things I could be thankful for:

So I begin with :

So I have lots to be thankful for and most importantly I have had another day filled with great memories to cherish of the people that I love and who make my life mine

Have a safe and Happy Weekend

I finally gave in... and got my daughter those glasses that she needed. Sigh I just couldn't come to grips that my 5 year old  ( well she was four when she got the prescription)  needed help to see.
She though LOVEs them!!! She still needs to adjust to them and takes them off every chance she can and then finds her self back under the tv as just before LOL
But I took a look throw those lens and GEE they are really quite STRONG... I couldn't wear them...well I don't need glasses, but that is another matter.

So for now my daughter is excited by the novelty of her new 'toy' and can't wait to show it off to her classmates... while I am as usual all anxious that the prescription may be too strong or that she may put it down , lose them or break them...or worse she has to wear them for the rest of her life.

I hope they really do their job of being corrective lens and help her eyes get better and not dependent!

This parenting thing really has too many twist and turns and sometimes too interesting.

I feel like my life is spiralling out of control.... well that is a bit mellow dramatic, but I am really getting so tired of time just slipping away from me because I am doing stuff. I am always doing something...dropping the children here picking thje husband up there, and once again my parttime job is more full time than parttime. And I find myself in a day that is finished with lots of good intentions unfulfilled and I feel terrible... not to mention EXHAUSTED. I haven't done anything that I really want to do for me. I miss my blogwriting, I miss my phone chats with friends because I remember to call them too late... LOL I think it is a sucky excuse to say that you didn't get around to doing something as basic as keeping up with family and friends because you couldn't find the time. Mind you if I was flaking away the time watching tv I would feel worse, but I don't even have time for that.. I fall asleep in front of the tube. Sigh that being said sorry for the whine Well tomorrow is another day full of time have a good week

Once a year around this time I feel the need to shout an ode to my housekeeper. Now I hum this ode dilligently through out the year, but at this time of the year I am ready to stand on a hilltop and bellow it for all to hear. Because you see dear people this is the time that I foolishly allow Miss Milli to go off on her much needed 2 weeks of leave. SIGH!!

Every year I send her off and tell her rest up and have fun and I think well I can do this Mothers all over the world work, clean, cook and take care of their children and they don't complain. And honestly for the first week I am usually thinking yeah I am superwoman... so what if I hate to wash the dishes, so what if I can't stand the idea of sweating over an iron, dinner haha I can do that in my sleep.. I am doing this HA!

then reality crashes in to the tune of the second week and I am weeping wondering why I never lined up a person to come help twice even once a week. Dishes pile up. Sinks get clogged, the laundry mountain just doesn't seem to ever get any smaller no matter the number of loads that I wash. My daughters hair... well okay i have figured out how to comb it in a way that makes her happy. i have heard enough chat from my youngest about how Miss Milli cooks this dish and that dish so much better. Suffice it to say I am frazzled. I stayed up one night washing, folding and ironing because the children need to go to school in uniforms and pajamas just wouldn't do. And to add it all is trying to fit into a place that maybe bigger but lacks the storage space that my tiny townhouse provided.

 And my thoughts ran onto all the women that do this on a regular basis and I add them to my ode. So I am singing a song to all the mothers out there who don't have the part time relief of Miss Milli and I forever thankful that I have a Miss Milli to complement the lack of housekeeping gene that I clearly suffer from.

Sigh Maybe next year it would be easier ... hmmm we'll see.

 

( By the by Miss Milli came back yesterday and what a relief it was to walk into my house and see everything in it's place and food on the stove I did a jig and gave a hug to this woman that is my life saver :)   )

So at last we are set up! I seemed to be lacking the packing and unpacking gene so I am really not having much fun with this whole move thing. So much so I ran away for a few days this weekend. It clearly was necessary because I feel refreshed. :0) However the children seem to be doing great. They have settled into the new house as if they have always been here. Children are really the best. They teach you that you can adapt to change, because it is inevitable. Just embrace it and have fun while it is happening. So I am learning to relax and enjoy the new possibilities. Who is going to join me? It is a pity you couldn't come help me finish with this unpacking!